My Life is Great...(!??)

Just a quick glance at Fichita's round, chubby face early in the morning can bring me a smile ! What a great gift from Allah, I always say to myself, purposely to remind myself to be thankful to Him and accept my life the way it is.

Since Fichita was born about a month ago, I have to accept that my life will be undergoing a tremendous change; something I really hate to happen in my life. The first two weeks was a smooth sailing parenting. I guess what I heard about "u will have an easily managed baby if u've gone through a hard delivery" from few friends is really wrong as it comes to the third and fourth week. My patience and skills of parenting were totally challenged during the fourth week after Fichita coming to my life. She started to become cranky and demanded total attention from me. With the two assignments (30 pages each) that have been bothering me and to be submitted by the end of December, I guess no one could be more stressful and exhausted than I am right now.

Thanks so much to my mom, my sisters and other family members for the continous support and sincere help. Still, I must confess that the last two weeks of my life had been a nightmare! Fichita turns out to be a colicky baby, having difficulties with her sleeping routine and is a very 'manja" type baby, who loves cuddling and baby-wearing. I had to juggle the round the clock nursing and writing up my assignment. Hmm....isn't that great??

My two months maternity leave is in fact not a leave that ought to be enjoyed happily, and to be spent as quality times with my newborn. My routine starts with nursing /breastfeeding Fichita, cleaning her, and then grab a bite for my breakfast, if she falls asleep, quickly switch on the laptop, then nursing her again, ........ bla bla bla. I even find it hard to rest or even clean up myself! Consequently, I've become really stress out.

People may think Fichita is the one who makes my life soooo hectic. But actually, it's the assignments and the study that really give me a headache. Having said that, I'm thankful to Allah for HIs blessings and really hope I can get through this challenging period with patience and success. If anyone asks me how my life is...I will answer..."MY LIFE IS GREAT!!??".